Expectations?

I've really wanted to write on this blog for a long time, but I think I've been overcomplicating things. Everytime I go to write something, I feel like its not interesting enough. I think I'm really forgetting the main point to this blog-thing. Most times, I just need to clear my head. I guess I don't have to come up with some new idea or discuss a philosophical concept. I'm just too picky, I guess.

So this entry will not be extremely interesting.

I woke up this morning, had a coffee, did my morning puzzles, and went to class. Then I worked. Now I'm here. I was hung over because I went out last night. I went to open mic at Baba's, and sang new songs. It felt good. People complimented me, that felt good too.

I've been in a rotte these past few days, and I'd love to know how to get out. I think a lot of people are. This winter has been far too long and cold. I need a change.

I'm mad that my boss last year sold Cafe Diem to Murphy's. Very mad... but EXTREMELY disappointed. This probably means I'm out of a job, or at least need to go and get my servers course. Which wouldn't be a big deal if I wasn't so damn lazy.

I'm frustrated that people keep asking me what I'm going to do next year. I don't know, cool? I hate that I won't be in school. I hate not knowing what's next. I hate that I can't even plan anything until I find out about Japan. I hate that this math degree won't do jack-all for finding a decent job if I don't go to Japan. I hate that my life is going to change significantly, and ~50% of the people I care about won't be in it. I hate that its already started to happen. But what I would hate even more is festering on this island, not experiencing other things. I'll miss the people, but I won't miss the suffocation.

I'm sad, even though things are going pretty well in my life, and I really have nothing of significance to complain about. I'm lonely, even though I'm surrounded by great people. I'm constantly irritated and annoyed by everything, for no reason.

Maybe next week will be more interesting... but this week I'm too exhausted to come up with anything else.